Thursday, December 29, 2011

Travel Systems List (in progress)

Chicco Cortina Keyfit 30 Travel System
Baby Trend Expedition LX Jogging Stroller System
BOB Revolutions SE w/ Keyfit 30 Carseat
Britax B-Ready w/ Chicco Keyfit 30 Carseat

Blood Tests

I had my 3 hour glucose tolerance test today. Fast for 8-12 hours, first draw is a baseline. Then drink a bottle of super sweet juice...or I should say...sugar water then wait one hour for first initial draw of the GTT. One hour after initial draw is second draw, wait another hour. Last draw was at 11:47a and I have not eaten since 5p yesterday! It is not a fun feeling. I was hungry, thirsty and light headed. Thank goodness my bubby kept me company.

After the horrible ordeal at the lab my bubby took me to eat at a Chinese restaurant. It was okay food. Not the greatest but it was food. LOL!

We went straight home afterwards because I was so worn out. I ended up taking a nap from like 1 to 4pm. I woke up bloated, eck! I think the cause was the Chinese food and lack of water intake. So I have been drinking water, had my protein shake and still drinking water. Need to flush out all the salt and MSG. No more bad food after that. Time to get down to business especially since it is the last trimester!! Woot!

I am a little worried and stressed because I am scared that I may have preeclampsia, obstetric cholestasis and gestational diabetes -- all bad which could lead to early delivery. I know I should not stress until the blood results are in. But I swear Google is the devil because it gives you the power to research and the results are horrific! I still have to do a 24 hour urine collection, which I will start Sunday evening, and turn it in Tuesday morning. The 24 hour urine collection is to determine if I have protein in my urine. If I have protein in my urine then I have preeclampsia. GAAAAHHH!

I just pray that JJ comes out healthy. I want the best for my baby. I cannot help but blame myself for being so unhealthy. Even after losing 70 lbs it still was not enough.

Bubby says to have faith. Everything is in Gods hands. I know this and I have faith, but a little part of me is not in a good place with myself. I need to stop thinking about all of this. If I stress, JJ stresses and we cannot have that.

xoxo

Friday, December 23, 2011

24 Weeks <3

My goodness time sure does fly. I am 24 weeks pregnant today! My baby boy is growing! Per the pregnancy bible - What to Expect When You're Expecting - baby is at a weight of 1.5 lbs and 8.5 inches. JJ was 1.2 ounces on December 14th. The ultrasound tech said that he is growing at a good pace.

We are scheduling a 3D/4D ultrasound on January 6th, my 27th birthday! Well depends either the 6th or Saturday the 7th. LOL. The facility is located in Mira Mesa and is called A Baby Visit (.com). They have a large floor to ceiling screens and stage seating for family and friends. We are really excited to see our little man.

I have gained sooooo much weight. It sucks but I have to remind myself that it is all worth it for Joshua Jr. He is worth the weight gain, aches and pains.

I am going through the bloated phase. I had cankles last night! I woke up this morning a little less swollen than yesterday. I really have to watch my salt intake and drink tons of water. I was so swollen in the legs yesterday that they started to itch like crazy because of the skin stretching. Sooo not fun. Hahaha.

JJ has been very active! More so in the evening. He has been kicking/hitting hard to the point where my belly twitches. LOL. It is awesome to see. I love the feeling of him moving. When he doesn't moves I jiggle my belly a little and he moves. LOL. My poor little bubbs he probably gets annoyed with me. Hahaha.

xoxo

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Hormotional to the extreme!

Last night I had a major boohoo moment (one of many) and my darling husband has been putting up with it. I love him so much. Not once has he ever left my side. I am so thankful and blessed to have him in my life.

I won't go into detail as to why I was having a hormotional episode...l cried for an hour. I had the hardest time going back to sleep so right now I am extremely exhausted.

It was really bad last night. The pregnancy hormones just amplifies every little emotion and I cannot control it. I can be fine and dandy one moment and the next...bam! total sadness has washed over me.

Hubby keeps telling me to - hang in there. I am trying. He keeps telling me he just wants me to be happy. He makes me happy. Our son makes me happy. I don't know why I let my hormones get the best of me. I know I need to be happy for our little superhero.

I am trying. I really am.

xoxo

2012

The New Year is just around the corner. Time sure does breeze on by when you're having the time of your life with the love of your life.

I really do not do New Year Resolutions. I really do not believe in them. You actually just set yourself up for failure. I prefer goals.

I will have a finalized list of goals before the end of the month. But one of them is to blog or vlog everyday for 2012 .

I haven't been journaling...actually I haven't journaled since being married. Most of 2011 there has been no journal entries. So for 2012 it is blogging time. Plus with the possibility of leaving CA next year this will be a good way for family and friend to know what's going on with the Miller family.

xoxo

Monday, December 19, 2011

Onesies!!

I found the cutest onesie! JJ is mos def going home in this...







xoxo

Emotions and feelings...

Lately I've had my episodes of sadness/depression and well it is actually little things. Stupid if you think about it. I have a great fear that my hubby will one day leave me. I know he never will and I know he loves me with all his heart. I guess it is because after hearing what happened to some of my friends I have built a fear that Josh might do the same thing even though deep down I know he will never do what their significant others have done.

I still have my insecurities. I am trying really hard to let them go.

My darling hubby knows all of this and how I have been feeling and everyday he tells me how much he loves and that he will never leave me because I am the only one for him.

It is such an amazing feeling to have someone love you as much as you love you him. He is my world, my heart, my love...

He is the father of our little bundle of love. He is my soulmate, my bestfriend and my companion.

Everyday I thank God for him and I thank God for truly blessing me with such a wonderful man that is my husband.

I am gettin all mushy gushy right now. Hahaha.

I love my husband so much.

xoxo

Friday, December 16, 2011

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

22 Weeks & 5 Days

My baby boy - JJ


xoxo

Friday, December 9, 2011

Friday, December 2, 2011

21 Weeks <3

12.02.2011

Just finished getting ready to spend the day/evening in LA with my hubby and bestie.


xoxo