Mommy Blog!?

Yes I have decided to turn this blog into a Mommy blog!! I figured since I will be a stay-at-home Mom (SAHM) starting June 13th I should document my life as a full time NEW Mommy!

JJ is such a beautiful blessing. I am still in awe of him. I really do not think it has fully hit me that I am a Mother and JJ is a little over two months old!

When I look at him my heart melts and I cannot believe Joshua and I created him. It is absolutely amazing.

I am still on the hunt for a blog designer. I would like this blog to be more not so boring and blah.

Here is a picture of my happy baby and I hope his smile makes you smile...



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Trying...

I am going to TRY to write a blog post everyday for the month of June. We shall see how it pans out. These next two weeks will be my hectic weeks with work, packing, and just getting everything prepared for the big day.

15 days and counting...

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The countdown begins...

16 more days left in San Diego. I cannot believe how fast time is flying. We are already halfway through 2012.

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A lot has happened these past few days. JJ turned 2 months on the 30th of May. I had an emotional breakdown on that day as well. I do not know what came over me. I could not control my emotions.

I broke down in front of my parents, brother and JJ. Then that evening I broke down over the phone with my hubby. I feel so stupid now but at that time I was just out of it.

My Dad said it could be the birth control. I need to have a better handle on my emotions. I know this now. I do not want to go through that again especially in front of JJ.

I know my parents are here to help me but I guess I felt like I wasn't getting any bonding time with JJ. In my head I felt like JJ did not want me. My Mom and Dad are only trying to help and spend time with him. When we are in OR they will not get to see him everyday like they do now. I understand this. I just lost it that day. I really need to get rid of the negative that runs through my head sometimes.

I am not ashamed or embarrassed to talk/write about this. It is not postpartum depression. I think I had a case of the baby blues. Those are two very different things. I am okay now. I have a better grasp on everything right now.

Being at work does not help. I miss JJ so much and that adds on to all the mixed emotions.

I love my husband so much. I know I am a handful at times. I know he is really trying to be supportive. The distance between us makes it hard buy in 15 days we will be reunited and in 16 days we will be on our way to OR as a family.

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05.30.2012 - TWO MONTHS!! (forgot to post!)

My baby boy is two months old today! I cannot believe how fast time is going. My little handsome is growing up so fast.


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Blog/Journal

I have recently purchased a new Moleskine journal and am getting back into writing. It feels so good to have pen in hand and put it to paper and let the thoughts just flow. Hopefully I can keep it up. We shall see.

As far as blogging goes...I do plan on getting more into it when in Oregon. Especially being a SAHM (stay at home Mom) once we are there. I am super excited about it. I will probably milk the unemployment for a year...two if possible. I want to spend time with JJ as much as possible. I will be housewife and SAHM. I look forward to it for sure :)

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JJ is SIX WEEKS OLD!

Time sure does breeze on by!

JJ is six weeks old today! I cannot believe that my little man is already six weeks. Every time I look at him, I am still in awe. I cannot believe that JJ came out of me. He is such a beautiful boy and I love him so much.

JJ is now making baby noises...he is so adorable when he makes the coo'ing noises. He is also strictly on formula. I made the decision to just stick with formula. Since birth JJ was breastfeeding and I supplemented with formula. I was not producing enough for his big appetite. Usually after every feeding I would have to give him an additional 1-2 oz of formula. It takes a good 6-8 hours for me to produce a full supply. Now that he is on formula he seems to be a happier baby. I am happier.

I was a little sad and trying to deal with "I cannot even provide for my baby"...it was hard. But with the support from my husband and awesome Mommy friends I am okay with JJ being on formula. The breastfeeding Nazi's can just shove it. Not all of use can produce enough milk, some cannot produce at all. We need to encourage and support each other...not knock each other down.

JJ's pediatrician is all about breastfeeding and does not understand how hard it is for me. She was able to BF her baby to almost 12 months. She said she was overflowing with milk. My cousin was the same way, and I have friends that are that way now. As for me...I would have loved to breastfeed for at least a year.

My baby boy is growing and is healthy and that is all that matters.

04.30.2012 - ONE MONTH!! (forgot to post!!)

One month ago today I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy.







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